So I'm starting a blog
Which I've been talking about for months now. Why does it take so long for me to start something new? why does it take so long? Largely because I don't want to start something that'll prove I'm not as smart as I thought I was. Starting means the beginning of a death to a perfect idea that exists only in my head. Once I write it down, it becomes real, and reality has a habit of being disappointing. In a way this is my exposure therapy. But if there's a largely there's also a marginally. It's marginally because... It's kind of weird to use the word marginally here no? maybe it's because that's how we feel about the marginalized. Taught systemic oppression bleeding into syntax. Language isn't neutral. Maybe I haven't started a blog because deep down I believe the things I want to say will only matter if they're perfect. But perfection is sterile. It's violence against becoming. I'd rather be messy and alive. Which is to say... ma...